Recently I've had a few older people ask me if I know what my tattoos will look like when I'm their age. My response was simply, I don't care. In my opinion they are like scars. A reminder of the past. If they become warped it will be because I lived a good life. My body is mine and I don't care how it will look when I'm older. Who will I have to impress at that point? Plus, if I can paint myself now and become something unique, I'm going to. May as well do it while I still have the body to.
Those who try to tell me I'm going to regret my tattoos when I'm older are obviously not thinking about the things they represent to me. One is for a dear friend of mine who decided it was his time to go. The tattoo has such a deep meaning to me that I don't care if it gets warped or faded because it will always be a part of him attached to me in a way. I will always have him close to me.
Another is for my family. It represents them as well as other aspects of my personality. I want to be able to tell my children and grandchildren about all the things that my tattoos will represent. And besides, when I'm older I will have earned whatever damages have occurred to my body and I will wear them proudly, including every single faded, warped, damaged tattoo that I will have.
It's better to be a worn out masterpiece than simply worn out. I will wear my ink proudly and be a walking canvas until the day that I die.
~Serena~
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Z (Poem)
My heart bursts
The sky is on fire
Nothing is real
I can't stand it
I'm falling faster
You make me feel
Things I've forgotten
No restraint
Raw emotion
At it's finest
I'm insane
You pull it out
It rears it's head
Taking control
Slowly creeping
Threatening me
I reject emotion
But you make it show
Unlike anyone before
I love you
As cliche as it sounds
You are the light
I've been waiting for
Though we'll be apart
I will always be there
Lingering in your mind
Like you linger in mine
Untitled (Poem)
The world cries for you
I can't sleep, can't eat
There is no meaning
To anything around me
Lyrics weaved by geniuses
Cry out the words in my heart
Never knowing your thoughts
Slowly burns a hole in my heart
I wish I could've been there
When you needed me most
Wish I could've stopped
All of the things going wrong
Ended your lonliness
Gave you a hand to hold
Through all the pain
And all the sadness
Writhing in your soul
But now you're up there
Or maybe down below
But I know the sadness
Has stopped taking it's toll
On your worn out mind
I wish you knew
The weight of your decision
Before you took every bit
That I had let you have
Of my now weeping soul
I can't sleep, can't eat
There is no meaning
To anything around me
Lyrics weaved by geniuses
Cry out the words in my heart
Never knowing your thoughts
Slowly burns a hole in my heart
I wish I could've been there
When you needed me most
Wish I could've stopped
All of the things going wrong
Ended your lonliness
Gave you a hand to hold
Through all the pain
And all the sadness
Writhing in your soul
But now you're up there
Or maybe down below
But I know the sadness
Has stopped taking it's toll
On your worn out mind
I wish you knew
The weight of your decision
Before you took every bit
That I had let you have
Of my now weeping soul
Friday, May 4, 2012
Smoke (Poem)
Smoke rises
Flowing gracefully
Peacefully entranced
By it's surroundings
Living by it's own laws
Disregarding all around it
Twisting freely
Dancing to it's own rhythm
Embracing it's death
With a slow drift
Into pure oblivion
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Breaking Up (Random Thoughts)
Being broken up with is a very strange feeling. It's like you know you're losing them, but really nothing has changed. They seem to take your heart with them, and you feel like something is missing. You want to talk to them and you still have feelings for them, but you aren't "allowed" to act on them. I have a long history of acting on those feelings and it always fucks me up in the end, but what can I say. I want them to still have feelings for me and I hope that they aren't just trying to use me. Somehow, though, I stay on their minds. Like I'm a recurring disease they just can't seem to get rid of. They are just as tempting to me as I am to them. Like candy to a person on a diet. I want to be with them, but I pull myself away so I don't cause any damage. It's like falling in a dream, you wait for the impact, but stop yourself just before and wake up. Your heart still beats fast and you need some time to recover, but no real damage was done.
Dreaming after breaking up seems to bring forth memories of all my past relationships. The boys tempt me in my dreams and try to show me what we could do now. Dancing around, teasing me with their smells and voices. Their faces burned into my memory like a scar that just won't fade. I am cursed with vivid memory and realistic dreams. If only I could simply forget those who have hurt me, and live in a peaceful world without longing and sorrow.
Dreaming after breaking up seems to bring forth memories of all my past relationships. The boys tempt me in my dreams and try to show me what we could do now. Dancing around, teasing me with their smells and voices. Their faces burned into my memory like a scar that just won't fade. I am cursed with vivid memory and realistic dreams. If only I could simply forget those who have hurt me, and live in a peaceful world without longing and sorrow.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Fire (Poem)
Fire
It burns within
Reaching out to touch the world
Ever growing, ever changing
Feasting off of everything
Inferno of power
Rage and lust all in one
Enough to destroy both you and I
Fear will grow in your heart
I will destroy you and you know it
Revenge is sweet, I will be satisfied
Even as the fire dies in your eyes
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Do you think of me? (Poem)
When you fall
I'll be the first to laugh
When she finds out
I'll probably be the one who told her
I hope your life falls apart
And I hope you get back the karma
That was thrown at me
Fuck you and your life
I hate what you've done to me
Never again will I think of you
I hope every time she's under you
You think of me
I hope every time you kiss her
My face pops into your head
I hope you think of me
When you're fucking her
You will never get me out
Because, babe, once I'm there
Your mind is mine
You ain't ever getting it back
Thank you for letting me in
Have a nice fucking life
~Serena~
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