Untitled (Poem)

Falling apart slowly

I don't know if you can hear me

My screams seem silent

In the clouds that haunt my soul

Part of me has been ripped away

I cannot breathe

My life is falling apart again

How can I live through this again?

Is this life destined to be

A series of heartbreaks

Will I ever find the one

I was meant to be with

They tell me he's there

He's just losing his mind

I do stupid things to forget

The pain that lingers within

I don't know how to forget

What he did to me

I can't get over this

I don't know if I can live again

Within the lie that I've put up

That has slowly become the real me

I fall through darkness

Groping for something to halt my fall

There is nothing there

Nothing at all

Why must the burdens

That are so large and terrible

Be placed on my shoulders

When my whole world is crashing

I can't stand to be here

I don't want to feel like this anymore

I'll just tip back the bottle

And smoke what I can find

Anything to numb the overwhelming pain

That's left deep inside

I can't believe what is happening

My life turned upside down

The reality is I don't deserve what I've been given

So God took it from me

I long for the ending

But He won't give it to me

It's not my time to go

I still have a whole road

That I was meant to follow