Alright so my friend is kinda depressed. His girlfriend broke up with him and although I'm truly falling for him I feel really bad. I'm concerned and honestly it's hard to make me actually care for someone that much. He seems very distant and just not right. I have no idea how to help him. He's not the kind of person to take things very seriously. He's absolutely gorgeous and amazing and I want to pay absolute attention to him everytime I'm near him. I antagonize him just to get his attention. I'm seriously concerned for his health right now though. I think he's just like me in the way that his mind works. He hides as much of his emotions as he can and laughs like no other when he really feels a need to be different than that. Why he's confiding in me I will never know. People come to me with their problems but not him. I went to him with a problem once, but that problem is irrelevent seeing as my so called true love decides not to talk to me and be a gigantic ass face whenever I attempt a conversation. I'm not sure what to do about that either. Then to add onto this huge mess I have a boy who is sweet and funny and kind that I'm sure is falling hard for me but I feel no connection there. His personality is great but I have been with two guys like that and I walked all over them. I'm terrible in a relationshit because I have a very hard time thinking of anyone but myself. I'm very selfish but that is how a teenager is supposed to be. I feel like such a tease sometimes because I am really not looking for a connection anymore. I found who I want and I can't be with him because for one he's taken and for two I'm almost positive he doesn't feel the same way about me. I mean honestly how could he? I am exactly like him. We're both looking first and foremost for a physical attraction and the physical aspects of a relationshit. That was all I wanted from him until I realized I was absolutely and irrevocably in love with him. Now he's tossed me from his life like a used rag even though he supposedly still loves me. I was never officially with him to tell you the truth. We were what many would call friends with benefits but losing him was like losing a boyfriend. He was so sweet to me but he would push back. I have a way with just picking at people and finding what gets to them and messing with them constantly. He was able to deal with that and I never wanted to fight with him like I do with other people. He was absolutely amazing in so many ways. He was my perfect match but I suppose when you lose someone your bound to feel like this. No he didn't die or anything he just moved and found a replacement. She's much prettier and probably a lot more happy than I could ever be. She's much better for him and as much as I say that I can't agree with it. I can't admit to the fact that someone could replace me.
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