I have been saved. My heart was longing for someone who was nearly out of reach. Then another came along and his recently single status has sparked my interest. He's amazing and gorgeous and makes me laugh when I want to cry and he has truly saved my heart from the deep depression it was in. I feel renewed, but it's bittersweet. If I let him in I could get hurt again like I have been many times before, but I absolutely adore him and I wish deeply for him to be mine. I am extremely jealous when he flirts with other girls. I become possessive of my crushes but not outwardly possessive. I more get a feeling in the pit of my stomach because I wish he was flirting with me not some other random chick. I flirt all the time with other guys and I can only wonder if he feels the same jealousy I feel. If we were together it would be pure magic on my part. Just being near him makes me giggle like a little girl and smile against my will. I'm sure I blush like no other as well. He came along when I had no heart and rejuvenated what little pieces I had left. I have him to thank for that. I'm just afraid that whatever I do have left he'll steal and destroy just like what happened with the one who I thought was my soul mate. I have no idea what to do but writing about it made me feel much better. I'm done for now and I'm going to go ponder what to do.
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