Walking to lunch nearly gives me a heart attack. I know I'm going to see him. He'll be there, he'll stare, he'll laugh, he'll joke. His movements will captivate me. His touch will run shivers down my spine. Looking into his eyes, I'll be lost unintentionally. He'll hide behind his hair. That soft, beautiful hair. The way he walks will distract me. Thoughts will rush into my mind. I want to be in those arms. I want to touch that hair. I want to be the one he looks at. To be the one he's thinking of. I'll be annoying just to get his attention. I'll laugh over ridiculous things. My mind will be constantly filled with thoughts. Against my will, I am falling for him. With every fiber of my being, I am unsure. I miss the one who stole my heart. I think about him every single day, I long to touch him. To kiss him. To be with him once more, yet I know that alternate reality won't occur. No matter how often I wish it to be true. So, I have unintentionally and unwillingly fallen for another. He makes me feel almost exactly the way that the other makes me feel, but without the physical side of things. I'm content falling for him without making out, or hugging, or other various things. No not what you're thinking lol. For the first time, in a long time, I finally think I'm moderately happy again. He has brought the life that was taken from me back from the dead. My heart still belongs to that other being, but I think I may slowly be gaining it back. I want to have that physical side of things with this boy, but I'm content just being friends for now. He's one of the most amazing boys I have met in a very long time. He teases me, when I push he pushes back, he won't let me control him, he is amazing in that sense. I need someone to actually push back. That may be one of the reasons that I am, in fact, falling hard for him. So, as I said before, against my will, I have fallen in love again. :)
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