Untitled (Poem)

Falling apart slowly

I don't know if you can hear me

My screams seem silent

In the clouds that haunt my soul

Part of me has been ripped away

I cannot breathe

My life is falling apart again

How can I live through this again?

Is this life destined to be

A series of heartbreaks

Will I ever find the one

I was meant to be with

They tell me he's there

He's just losing his mind

I do stupid things to forget

The pain that lingers within

I don't know how to forget

What he did to me

I can't get over this

I don't know if I can live again

Within the lie that I've put up

That has slowly become the real me

I fall through darkness

Groping for something to halt my fall

There is nothing there

Nothing at all

Why must the burdens

That are so large and terrible

Be placed on my shoulders

When my whole world is crashing

I can't stand to be here

I don't want to feel like this anymore

I'll just tip back the bottle

And smoke what I can find

Anything to numb the overwhelming pain

That's left deep inside

I can't believe what is happening

My life turned upside down

The reality is I don't deserve what I've been given

So God took it from me

I long for the ending

But He won't give it to me

It's not my time to go

I still have a whole road

That I was meant to follow

Please Leave (Poem)

I wish you would leave
Get out of my mind
I'm going insane
I don't want to cry
It kills me so much
That you still love me
Because I dearly wish
That I could forget you
I'm spinning in circles
Around my mind
But everywhere I look
You're right by my side
It's wrong to think of you
When I love someone else
It destroys me to think
How much I loved you
When the love I feel for him
Is so much more
I can't stand to hurt you
It would kill me inside
To know you still loved me
When I left you behind
I couldn't stand to do
What you did to me
So long ago
I wish I was free